lately life has felt a little...expectant. pregnant with possibility (but maybe just hope. or maybe that's just the rain talking). stagnant too maybe. or heavy? not slow, but not moving. likely this is just the feeling one has after a lot of activity. and i think I've been tying this feeling to my own lack of motivation to go anywhere or do anything with the kids these past few days. it is hard to be pulled in many directions all at once and to want to give yourself to each direction fully, but never being able to. that is motherhood these days. not bad, but...i am ready for some more adventure with these two.
but yesterday, we didn't have any plans, and i was contemplating another day indoors until i realized, hey, i have a perfectly acceptable yard. not an ideal one, sure. not a perfect one, by far. but i am finally learning that when it is spring, when it is not too chilly, when it is not yet hot, when there is a break from the rain, you go outside. you do not worry about stray dogs or stray poop in the yard or snakes or the extra energy spent on jackets and boots. you go outside and you play in the dirt and everyone is happy as can be.
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