Thursday, December 13, 2012

a short update and no pics

it's been so long that maybe i should feel too embarrassed to write anything, but since i've probably lost any readers i had, i'm going to take this long-awaited opportunity to hang up the ever-present internal editor and just write what i want here. there's a good chance it will be about nothing, but this is what i like to call reverse psychology and low expectations. tell me that no one is looking and i might actually blog more than once every other month.

so, yes, things have been rough around here. it turns out that getting pregnant and starting a new job at the same time is not the recommended way to do things. but i don't listen to recommendations when they really matter. cause that's how i roll.

apart from growing a human being in my body, i've been going to bed at 9:30 every night (lame!), going to work every day, and trying not to eat everything in sight. but seriously, it feels like that's ALL i've been doing. i haven't had much energy or capacity for anything else, which has been a bit depressing. but with a break from work coming up in a week, i'm starting to feel like it's time to bust out of this rut and have a life again...or at least pretend to.

this is what i want to remember about life right now:

baby kicks feel like frogs, jumping in my belly (so strange!). daily exercise never felt so hard - i might have misled the midwife last week about getting thirty minutes a day. i have a pregnancy workout that i've done three almost six months. loverboy's dismayed reaction when i started patting my belly like a drum (it really sounds like a drum!): what are you doing? there's a baby in there! (i secretly think baby liked it). we are so proud of our morning green drinks that consist mainly of spinach, kale, walnuts, flax seeds, soy milk, fish oil and a banana. that's how i justified eating three sugar cookies at work today. the baby made me do it. i never appreciated before how easy it used to be to bend down and tie my shoes. or sleep on my stomach. lars is super frisky now with the cooler weather. looking for houses is sometimes fun (when you see a house you really like) and sometimes super stressful (when the house you really like is really too expensive) but we're also very sure that God will give us the right house. spending extra time in prayer with a few companions in these weeks has been so wonderful and renewing.

well, i think that's all the creative juice i have in me. plus it's already almost forty minutes past my bedtime!

goodnight all

working-pregnant-uninspired B


  1. so glad to read you again. i've been thinking about you. as usual, "uninspired" you inspires me. huuuug.

  2. Ah, but it's OK. You are already getting a feel for the art of "good enough" parenting. As in, you do the best you can with what you have and trust the Lord for the rest. You accept that you cannot do everything or even half of what you would like to be doing or feel you "should" be doing right now. This is mothering. And in the middle of it all, in the middle of feeling just so absolutely imperfect, you hear the Lord saying, "Come to Me and rest." His yoke is easy, and His burden is light.

    9:30 is an excellent bedtime for growing a human being! :-)

  3. Belly pics! Belly pics! Bethany wants to see belly pics!