cantankerous anonymous

today i woke up feeling cantankerous and ornery. like this:

actually, i think i went to bed that way. and possibly woke up that way yesterday, too. some days (months) are just hard. even though we have some wonderful things on the horizon, i can't quite help feeling like i'm treading water....just waiting for things to change, things to happen. i want to enjoy this time, but there is just some stress in my life that i can't change for the moment, and it makes it very hard for me to relax and enjoy the rest of life.

and let me tell you, it is especially hard when you have a small melon stuck in your gut, a backache to go with it, and the reminder of your growing back fat that you need to be exercising thirty minutes every day.

so to make myself feel better when i came home from work, i went for only a ten minute walk and then ate some toast. this also made me feel good because it wasn't A.) cake (ever since our teacher talked about the terribleness of sugar i've been noticing a terrible cake deficiency in my diet) or B.) Taco Bell (don't tell jazz as he will be horrified and disgusted and has prohibited me from ever eating taco bell again...good thing i'm a good selective listener!;)

so anyways, next time, we will make every effort to include something positive, uplifting and new years resolutionish. unless all promises are negated by pregnancy orneriness. in which case i can't be held accountable. you'll just have to wait and see. oh the excitement!

xx,

cantankerous anonymous B